Today is actually a better day. Yesterday, I was so uncontrollably crabby I didn't even want to be with myself. When you want to get away from your own self, you're having a bad damn day. I didn't get my post written (hand slap), nor did I do my 1000 words (another hand slap). I was so pissy, I couldn't have written a sentence if you paid me.
Why so cranky? I think there's a bunch of reasons (and none of them are pms, although I wouldn't be at all surprised if that little bitch decided to sneak in early). My Christmas shopping isn't done and I'm feeling uninspired this year. And I LOVE Christmas shopping, so this is totally out of left field for me. Bills are due and yet checks are not arriving. That's always a good way to up the stress level to Code Red. It's almost Christmas vacation for the kids and while I'm excited to have some more time to spend with them, I feel I already have enough gray hair and I'm not really looking to add to the current count. We had stomach flu palooza last week, and although I did lose about 10 lbs, I'm still trying to catch up on laundry from that freak show. There are a couple family issues (I'll save for another post), the ever present "should I go back to work or keep trying for this writing thing" debate. We need a new house. The children eat at least 12 hours a day. Husband works about that long too. The seasonal change is killer in our house, at least for the adults. We get all mopey and not so fun to be around. I think it's mostly just one of those weeks, but it's the end of the week and I've about had it.
So, somebody's either gonna have to come inhabit my body, so I can get a little holiday cheer going (I'm thinking the Lollipop Guild), or I'm going to have to spend the next 4 days watching Rescue Me non-stop (because that's always a feel good kind of show).
Sorry to bum you out. If you're not grinchy this year, more power to you. And if you feel like me, fake it till ya make it, right?
I adore you girlie, and as one who is in very similar shoes I can let you know you aren't alone in every damn thing and worry you have. Sure, it doesn't help a lot, but hell, knowing I'm not the only one paddling upstream makes my hella aweful days/weeks a little better :)
ReplyDeleteSteph Becken
I agree 100%. And if the days are super sucky right now, then we won't have any, EVER, later on, right?
ReplyDeleteI love your photo, btw
ReplyDeleteWe are paying dues for the super fantastic mega awesome days in the future :)
ReplyDeleteAnd thanks. I'll have to show you my dirty pics one day ;)
The main thing to remember is that you are not alone in all of this, we all feel that way sometimes, more often that we would like, it will get better. Merry Christmas/happy holidays to you and yours :)
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